A Very, Merry Christmas

Being as I will be on a mission the next time Christmas comes around, I know it won't be the same. Among many of the grander and more important Christmas traditions, I won't even be able to post on my blog next Christmas. So, here's to my Christmas hurrah-

It came by way too quick. With being in school and struggling through my last finals, I didn't get the chance to even notice December roll around. By the time I caught my breath and was packed and ready to fly home, it was already the 14th. I figured 2 more weeks until Christmas is plenty to get my holiday fill... I was wrong. This was the quickest I've ever seen it come. I wish it would wait just a little bit longer.

This year I don't even know what to expect. I had no idea what to ask Santa for since I feel most of what I need should be for the mission, and I don't even know where I'm going yet. Luckily, I have the most creative mom in the world that is the absolute best in making specifically Christmas, but every important experience memorable and personalized. I'm scared for when I'm a mom and have to live up to the expectations I've set for myself by what I've grown up with. I guess you know you've been a good mother when your children feel  inadequate to the job before they have even begun. Well played, Mom.

This might also be the last time I'm in a home where Santa still visits. If I miss 2 Christmases I am pushing my luck with Savannah still believing with 3 brothers ahead of her. I am lucky enough to have witnessed all these years of the miracle of Santa working in my house. It might be the best part of being the oldest of so many kids. I publicly believed in Santa for a bit longer than most; now it's more of an inward appreciation for the Big Man. He's done so much for me over the years that my thanks could never be enough. The magic of Christmas is something that is incredibly special to me.

Lastly, I want to remember the children of Sandy Hook Elementary. They became a pivotal part of this Christmas. I am so thankful to have my family, to have a Christmas un-scarred by devastation, and most of all to have the knowledge of eternal life. I know they returned to a loving Heavenly Father and His Son, Jesus Christ. I know that they are happy and safe. I am grateful that moreso this season I was able to remember the sanctity of Jesus' atonement, and not just his birth. That he has felt each of their family's pain and sorrow, and that through him, they can be comforted.

I love Christmas, and the special spirit of it all that spreads to everyone. Now, it's just trying to keep it around all year :)

Merry Christmas!

I Hope They Call Me...

There are so many things I have wanted to talk about and need to catch up on, yet have fallen so behind. Because I just took my last final for my Fall 2012 semester, I am now freed from the bonds of the pain of Anatomy and mental breakdowns to do so.

I could rant for hours about how this semester was incredibly difficult, and such a disappointment to me.
I could also write about the excitement of Christmas and to go home.
Technically I never wrote about any of my summer adventures; I could write about that too.

But mostly I just want to write about what has had me on edge since October 6, 2012.

I am indescribably happy about the opportunity to serve a mission so soon. From the minute I heard this announcement, I immediately burst into tears, and didn't stop for a solid hour and a half. I was overcome with such a spirit that I have never in my life felt in that way before. I know this is my Heavenly Father's plan for me and I am so blessed to fulfill it. I have started my papers and want to get it in as close to January 1st as possible, and hope to leave sometime in May. With everything I have been frustrated and disappointed in recently, I am incredibly anxious to be able to serve the Lord, and I think that puts things into perspective very well...and for that, I am grateful!

Exhaustion

is bittersweet.
I feel like I am doing so much with my days that that is all I ever truly feel.
But hey, how often has that ever occurred in the days of my procrastination?
Not oft.
I feel accomplished in a small sense.

I RAN TODAY!
This never happens!
I DESPISE running. I want to like it so much, and mentally, cannot.
I finally got running shoes whose original owner was myself.
They are beautiful.
I need them to condition for Rugby.
Boo yah! I like contact sports.
Also I am trying to swing an A in Anatomy, which is notorious for killing the students who are foolish enough to undergo it.

But hey, I ran! Today is the start of a great year.

19 Things before 19

It's 12:52 and I'm laying in bed...just thinking. I'm not tired and I'm not energetic, just in a weird daze. I think this is inspiration telling me to get back into writing. Just something. It knows I've missed it. There is so much to catch you up on... I feel like life has driven by in a blur. That's a scary thought...considering I only hear people over 35 tell me how fast their life goes by. But here I am; no longer a freshman and now middle class. At home for longer than 2 weeks for the first time in 10 months. I managed by the miracle of all miracles, to swing an A in Political Science, which has kept me in high spirits. And you, lucky reader, are officially reading the sporadic life-tales of an officially declared Communication Disorders Major. Next week I start my official summer job as one of Chino Hills' finest Recreation Leaders, and have spent my empty hours babysitting a couple high maintenance kids along the way. I have loved the break and being back home. California just makes me happy, and for that, nobody can compete against it :) I have also avoided the ranks of the desolate local Singles Ward, and headed off for a change in scenery in Fullerton. I have loved the people I met there & I'm hoping to gather some great accomplices in the completion of the 19 items before 19 (considering the end of summer marks my 19th birthday and the first day of school, it seems a fair idea) :

1. Visit the Happiest Place on Earth (I am without a pass and have no plans to renew..Cast Member Friends please? I need Fantasmic!)
2. Learn how to surf (seriously..I really should be entitled to keep up the Californian Stereotype & it's been on my list for awhile)
3. Camping on the beach (what's the eggplant for anyway, if not to rove around the coast?)
4. Relatedly, inner tubing on the ocean
5. develop a style from a trendy thrift store in Hollywood
6. stay in a haunted house
7. build a fort
8. Six Flags!!!!
9. summa lovin' = time for a real date.
10.get abs.
11. tandem bike, for nerdly fun
12. teach the moonlit skin of mine to express its 1/4 black goodness
13. make some $$ to take back to school
14. visit Ellen Degeneres again
15. roadtrip!
16. can I see Wicked for the 5th time?
17. midnight premiere of The Dark Knight o'course
18. Roscoes Chicken n' Waffles in LA
19. Confidence. I'm gonna do what I want.

Until then, happy Summer '12 from the west coast!

Goodbye, 2011.

I'm not one to say "goodbye", so I guess it just took me a month and a day to do so. I couldn't leave 2011 out to dry while I started my adventures in 2012. So here's to the last hurrah,



I am  not even sure where to begin.This was definitely the year of new beginnings. Ending high school and moving forward with my life. Leaving my home, my friends, family and everything familiar behind me, and moving to The Bubble. I embrace most change, I like to be in a different place with a new schedule and new experiences. I was undoubtedly excited to leave behind high school. I don't think I missed it until graduation day-but then a week later I got over it and started Summer Term here at BYU. There is nothing super outstanding that altered the course of my life forever...but all the little things added up to one pretty good year.

To sum it up, I will give you a list in no particular order. In 2011 I...
- finally reached adulthood.
- spent the last of my senior year most often in Disneyland.
- got Pluto to shuffle, jerk, and ask me to Prom.
- then found a real prom date(some kid I never met, at another school) 1 day before the deadline to buy tickets. I consider that somewhat impressive.
- dressed as Hagrid to the midnight premiere of the final Harry Potter. (tear-jerking, really.)
- spent the night on a lifeguard tower, illegally, on the beach.
- saw Phantom of the Opera
- learned to forgive (a daunting task)
- had a one week summer vacation
- dyed Annie's hair with sugared kool-aid
- drank a smoothie at least 3 times a week (work..gotta love it)
- saw The Plain White T's, Jack Johnson, and Michael Buble.
- got accepted to a school I don't deserve
- kidnapped my best friend and drove (in buckets of rain) to a hotel on the beach at midnight
- last bullet then causing me to dress up as Jake, the yellow dog from Adventure Time to do so
- discovered the joy of Lost and the hilarity of How I Met Your Mother
- fought off a potential lesbian
- bought baby dolls for a football game
-decided who will be the boy that I marry
- became the victim of a very enthusiastic stalker named "Oooh Wee"
- mastered The Eggplant
-discovered what I want to be when I grow up
- gave a lesson on the art of making-out
- went from $3,000 to a solid $244.31 in a matter of 4 months
-wished on 11:11:11 11/11/11
-saw the Prophet speak (in person, yes)
- had "the most fun in years" by laughing deliriously
-sat in the FRONT ROW at my hilarious friend, Ellen Degeneres' show
-began a blog and a few special journals to document this little thing I call life...



and were it not for the divine destiny of the last night of 2011, I consequently, would never have experienced the best day of 2012. more will come soon (;