Boldness pt. 1

I really need to get better at this who blogging thing. It's been a month. That's bad. But in my defense, I've been writing in my other journals..so that counts right? I'll aim for at least once a week. I'm sitting here in the Wilk (aka the central building at BYU for all my basic needs) and I am meant to be studying for my biology test I need to take in exactly 1.2 hours. gah. The problem is...bio is pretty easy for me. So it begins a vicious cycle of barely reading my assigned material because I think tests are easy,which were really only easy because I actually did read for the first test. Did you get that? In essence, I'm procrastinating (refer to previous post). Would you like an update of my lovely little life here in central Utah, city of love, dead of winter? Thought so.

I got my first BYU kiss! whoooo. Most of the time that happens for every pair of love-stricken Provo18-year old lovers within their first 72 hours of meeting...but I'm trying to be individual here. ..yeah. As if my loneliness was a choice. But before you get all excited and start wondering what reversed the universe in cursing me with my unforgiving misfortune..realize now that it wasn't real. My recently become very close friend Walker likes to be bold. He likes to make other people feel uncomfortable with his extreme flirtiness and lack of shame. Usually this is aimed at his current love, Annie. Also one of my best friends here. Yet Annie is a sweet girl. And feels nervous and a little confused at what to do when Walker flirts with her so much. Yup...you see where this is going? Thus began the game "Who will turn away first?" Walker suggested we play. In the middle of the sidewalk, at 12:30 in the morning, in front of my friends and said lover, Annie. He lost the first round when stared into my eyes and slowly leaned in with his lips to mine.. he didn't think I would lean back to nearly kiss him. Then I felt severely awkward and smiled too much as he leaned in at a deathly slow pace that I looked away. Then I choked on ice (my very FAVORITE ice..little snowball ice. yeah, it's great). Then, I just point blank kissed him. (what? I despise losing)

 It was a kindergarten kiss. And super quick. And I wish (along with Annie and Alex) I had prolonged the kiss into something passionate and undeniably awkward, hoping that we wouldn't look in each other's general direction for a few hours. Nope. Wasted! The one chance to completely annihilate a shameless flirt with sheer awkwardity..my forte! I like being bold..it's fun. I just wish I had someone to make it count.. ;) At least I got a high-5 from Annie who is obviously excited we will potentially have kissed the same boy... when has that ever happened in the history of The Girl World? Haha. I love Annie. I love Walker. And I love them even more together, fingers crossed!

In reference to The Office picture, I do understand it is not a complete representation of my experience. Yeah, Walker is a boy. And I'm a girl. But i typed in awkward kiss and got this..how could I refuse the most awkward kiss I've ever witnessed..from my very favorite show? Anywho, one day, with the right guy it will be more like ....

...With a lot less adultery but equal parts of rain.